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"School going good, I'm basically done all that's left to do is finals," I didn't respond to the comment about my mother.
"You and Rashaan have been spending a lot of time together, wassup with that?" she asked.
"Nothing really, we just chillin plus you know he goes with Ashanti. That girl is crazy! She swears Ra and me has something going on. Tonight I went out with him, Ja’kari, and Kyanni, Kyanni and I went to use the restroom and I hear her discussing me. Ms. Jackie I'm not a troublemaker at all. I wasn't even going to say nothing, but I just couldn't help it, so I asked her did she have an issue with me. Why did she attack me? I'm not a fighter, but I'm not a punk either, so we fought," I told her the truth. I turned, so she could see the scratch on my face, "Look what she did to my face, made me feel even worse about myself," I turned away from her because I felt the tears getting ready to fall.
"Kaylee look at me," she grabbed my head and turned it towards her, "Your beautiful, don't ever let anybody tell you something different. I mean that, you understand? And hunny don't ever let another female bring you out of your character, you’re better than that, you understand?” I nodded my head yes.
“That girl has always been trouble, I don't know what my hard headed son sees in her, she doesn't have any damn respect," she was getting upset talking about her.
"Yeah, well, she claimed that she was pregnant with your grandchild, so congratulations," I stood up to let her know that this conversation was over.
"If I told you how many times she has said that you wouldn't believe me."
I shook my head, "That's crazy, but I'm gonna get in the shower, then call it a night, goodnight." I hugged her and proceeded to the shower.
Chapter Nine – Rashaan
I was on my third blunt when Kaylee came walking back into my room. She smelled crazy good. I knew it was going to be tough not hitting that tonight.
"Why are you standing by the door, come sit down," I pointed to a spot next to me on my king size bed.
"I wasn't just gonna sit on your bed. I was waiting for you to invite me over,” she started smiling.
"You're always welcomed in my room Ma. You took a long ass shower, I guess that's a female thing, huh?" I was high as hell and everything was funny to me.
"Actually, I was only in the shower for twenty minutes. When I went downstairs, Ms. Jackie was sitting in the living room, so I sat down and started talking to her for a little while. Since when did I have to explain myself to you?"
"She good?"
"She's fine Rashaan," she snatched the pillow from up under my head and laid back.
"Guess I gotta lay on you since you took all my pillows." I laughed and laid back onto her flat stomach. "Look, let me apologize for earlier tonight, seeing that fucking scratch on your face got me feeling some type of way, word!"
"Why you lie and tell Ashanti you was with Draya at the mall? Matter of fact, forget it, you’re not my man, so I don't even want to know," she caught an instant attitude.
"Kaylee I’ma keep it a buck with you, I'm dead ass feeling you Ma, but I’m in a relationship with Ashanti. I don't want to be with her anymore, and no, I'm not just saying that because I like you, I’m being completely honest. Me and shorty use to have a connection, and it’s just not there anymore. I tried to leave her a few months back, and she tried to kill herself. I got love for shorty because we been together for three years, but I'm not in love with her anymore. I feel like I gotta stay with her because she might try to kill herself . That shit will fuck with me for the rest of my life being that I’ma look at it as my fault.”
“She needs help, it’s nothing you can do to actually stop her if she really wants to kill herself. I'm not telling you to end shit with her, but you gotta be careful because crazy bitches like that will either carry out the threat of killing herself or worse kill your ass. All I’m saying is be careful.”
“Yeah, that’s true, but look I don’t wanna talk about her anymore. I want to talk about us.”
“What about us, you are in a relationship Ra,” she rolled her eyes at me.
“Well, we can be friends until I figure this shit out,” I told her,
“Honestly, I can’t be friends with someone I like,” she said that fast and low, I barely heard her.
“Speak up Ma, I didn’t hear you,” I distinctly heard her. I just wanted her to be louder.
“Nothing, I’m about to go to bed. It’s going on five, and I’m getting sleepy,” she yawned and tried to leave.
“Sleep with me, it might be hard, but I promise I’ma be good,” I smirked at her
“Okay, I’ll sleep in here. You better be glad your bed is comfortable or else I would be going to get in my bed,” she laughed and got under the covers.
We stayed up talking until seven in the morning. I feel like she is finally opening up to me about certain situations and she understands that with her is where I want to be I just don’t know how to end shit with Ashanti. I was woken up around eleven to Draya yelling. I hopped out the bed carefully not to wake my future queen up. I ran downstairs with nothing, but my boxers and socks on.
“Wassup, Draya,” I asked her. She was sitting on the couch putting on her sneakers.
“Wassup is I’m about to fuck Ashanti ass up, she so fucking disrespectful,” she pushed past me and tried to run out the front door. I grabbed her before she could open the door. I looked up the stairs and see Brittany running down them with Kaylee not far behind her.
“Rashaan get the fuck out my way,” Brittany calmly said.
“What the fuck happened?” I yelled
“She came here yelling and screaming, talking crazy, calling my mother out her damn name and acting a fool. For her to disrespect you is one thing, but when it comes to my fucking mother, I will go to war and not think twice about it! Now get the fuck out my way before I punch you in your shit!” Draya was screaming and yelling. My sister didn’t play when it came to me and my mother. Her hands were bi-sexual, she fought niggas and bitches.
“Kaylee get Brittany and Draya while I go find out what’s going on,” I needed someone to help me get some control of the situation.
“Okay,” she said, “Draya and Brittany come here real quick.”
As soon as they both walked over to her, I walked out the door.
“What the fuck is your problem Ashanti?” I walked up to her car and started yelling in her face, “Don’t ever come to my crib acting like a bird, ass bitch, are you fucking crazy?”
“Where is your little bitch Kaylee?” she smirked and looked over at her friend Tymeeka.
“Don’t worry about Kaylee! If you ask me, your ass is jealous of her. Ashanti it’s over, I’m sick of doing this shit with you. You need to leave, if you don’t I will have no choice, but to whip your damn ass myself,” I didn’t hit females, but this bitch was taking me there.
She jumped out the car and in my face, “Nigga it ain’t over until I fucking say so!” she reached in the car and pulled something out, “I’m pregnant muthafucka! Congrats daddy!” she got back in the car and threw the test at me then spit at me. Before I could respond Draya, Brittany, and Kaylee came running out the house.
“Now I gotta kill you bitch,” Draya went running for her car. Ashanti pulled off so fast I didn’t even know her car was started.
“I’ma see you in the streets you little funny looking bitch!” Shanti yelled out.
Kaylee looked at me and shook her head before walking back towards the front door.
“Draya and Britt go inside the house.”
“That’s word to everything when I see that bitch its lights out for her ass,” Draya said, as she was walking in the house. I followed behind them and instead of joining the ladies in the living room, I went back upstairs to my room. I grabbed my phone and hit up Ja’Kari’s line.
“Wassup bro?” he asked soon as he picked up
“Yo, I need a drink,” I sighed into the phone.
“Wassup it’s not even twelve yet?”
“I’m still over here trying to get past you and Kaylee laying in the bed together, you got something you wanna tell me,” he started laughing.
“Fuck you nigga, where you at?” I asked him.
“I’m at the crib. Kyanni said she gotta talk to me, so I’m waiting for shorty to come through. What are are you doing today?”
“It’s Sunday, so I’m not doing much, you know mom dukes gonna throw down in the kitchen and shit, you and Yanni should stop by” I invited him over cause I knew my mother wouldn’t mind.
“Yeah, aight that sounds like a plan, I’ma holla at you though,” after hanging up with him I laid back on my bed and went into deep thought.
Chapter Ten-Kaylee
It felt good lying in Rashaan arms all night. He kept his promise and didn’t try nothing, he just held me all night. We were resting peacefully before Ashanti came here with that bullshit. I can already tell she’s never going to give up. I’m going to have to beat her ass again. After everything had calmed down I went upstairs to check on Rashaan, he didn't know it, but he had officially become Bae.
He sleep when I walked in the room. I turned on the TV and sat on the edge of the bed.
"Come lay with me, Ma," he said sounding sexy as hell. I climbed into the bed and laid next to him.
"I've been having these weird dreams. I can't even explain them. It's like something bad is going to happen," I confessed to him.
"As long as I got breath in my body you don't gotta worry about shit. That's word Ma. I got your back true story." He wrapped his arm around me and fell back asleep. I laid there just thinking about how life would be if my mother were still alive. It would be different cause Brittany, and I probably would have never went through any of the shit that we went through. We would have never met Ms. Jackie and her children. I felt myself getting ready to sink into depression, so I got out of bed and joined Brittany and Draya in the room.
"What y’all doing? Y'all calm?" I asked walking in the room.
"Draya downstairs in the shower, but I'm good."
"Let me ask you something and be completely honest with me Brittany. Are you happy here?"
"Honestly, yes, these people were sent from heaven. I don't know where we'd be if it hadn't been for Ms. Jackie and God plus I'd rather be anywhere than near Nate. I hate him with a passion."
"You and me both, but look I need to tell you something."
"I don't like the sound of that Kaylee!" she raised her voice at me.
"I've been looking into going away for college."
"You've what? So you're just going to up and leave me? I have no fucking body, but you, and now you're leaving!" she stormed out of the room.
I didn't want it go like this; I thought she'd be happy for me. I want to do something with my life to make a better living for her. I'll let her cool down and try to talk to her again later. I went downstairs to see if Ms. Jackie needed anything.
"Hey, you need help with anything?" I offered her my help.
"Actually, yes I do, can you cut this cheese for me baby," she handed me some cheese and a knife. After dinner was almost ready, I went to wake up Rashaan.
"Wake up sleepy head, your mother said wake up and get ready for dinner," I tapped him lightly on his shoulders.
"I'm up," he mumbled, "Is Ja’kari and Yanni here?"
"I think I hear them downstairs, hurry up and come down. Please don't forget to put some pants on, I don't need you walking around with your boxers on like this morning,” I laughed and walked out the room. I bumped into Brittany as I was going down the stairs she was coming up.
"Britt can we please finish the conversation please?" I stood in front of her blocking her in.
"Kaylee I don't want to talk about it, it is what it is. I wish you the best of luck," she pushed her way through me.
I heard the doorbell ring as I made it to the last step.
"I got it," I yelled out so no one else would come and try to answer it.
"Wassup Ja’kari and Yanni?" I gave him and her both a hug.
"Wassup sis, where my boy at?" Kari asked me
"He upstairs, I just tried to wake him I don't know if he went back to sleep or whatever."
"Aight good looking," he responded as he went upstairs.
Chapter Ten – Rashaan
“Wake up nigga,” Ja’kari came walking in the room talking shit.
"Fuck you," I sat up and grabbed my phone to check my message. I shook my head at all text messages I had received from Ashanti.
"Why are you shaking your head?" he asked.
"Ashanti is a trip bro, did I tell you shorty claiming she’s pregnant?"
"Yeah, you told me, congratulations bro," he started laughing, "I guess me and you both about to be daddies, Kyanni pregnant too!”
"Get the fuck outta here, congrats my nigga," I dapped him
"She told me her parents found out and trying to make her get an abortion and shit. I'm not trying to hear that shit though." He looked like he was getting stressed out thinking about it.
"Damn, what y'all gonna do?"
"I'm moving her in bro. I'll be damn if she aborts my seed word."
"That's real nigga, shit, who would have ever thought that Ja’Kari’s ass would mature," I started laughing
"Fuck you," he joined in on the laughter.
"Mommy said for y'all to come eat," Draya opened my door and said.
"What I tell you about that shit Draya! Knock next time, damn, you would have been pissed off if you walked in here and I had a bitch bent over fucking her."
"Yeah, yeah", she walked out slamming the door behind her.
We went downstairs and joined everyone at the kitchen table. Mom dukes said prayer and we all dug in.
"I got something I need to tell you, Ma," I said randomly.
"What is it Rashaan?" she put her fork down and asked me.
"I've been looking at apartments and I have decided to move. Before you start going off let me finish. It's three blocks away, so I'm always going to be here when you need me. I'm still going to help you with your bills and stuff, but I'm not getting younger I need my own, I hope you can understand." I looked around at everyone’s facial expressions, and my mom Draya, and Kaylee all looked upset.
"Excuse me, I gotta use the bathroom," Kaylee got up and left out the kitchen.
"I mean I'm upset that you're growing up, but I can't hold you anymore. I wish you nothing but the best of luck and remember I'm always going to be there for you, I love you son." She said as a tear escaped from her eyes.
"Glad to know you care about my feelings and how this will affect me," Draya yelled.
"Draya you acting like I'm moving out of state, I'm moving three blocks away! I purposely got a two bedroom in case you ever wanted to stay over."
"Whatever I'm over it. Ma can I be excused from the table? I'm done eating.” My mother told her yes. Everyone got up from the table except me my mom and Ja’kari.
"You good Ma?" I asked her.
"Oh, I'm fine baby. I’m worried about your sister. I know that y'all are going to talk about it though, so I'm not going to stress it. Ja’kari how are you?"
"I'm good, Ma," he always called my mother "ma." "Kyanni pregnant," he blurted out.
"I knew it! I've had two children and I know when someone is pregnant. Congrats son." She got up and hugged him.
"Thanks Ma," Ja’kari and me got up and left out the kitchen.
"Let’s go outside and smoke a blunt," Ja’kari suggested.
"Aight let me go put something on my feet I'll be right out." I ran up the stairs and put on my wheat colored T
imbs. I walked outside, and Ja’kari was on his jack. I started rolling up while he finished his call.
"Wassup with that?" I asked him as he hung up.
"That's Kiaja, I met shorty the other night. She's some fire bro," he smirked.
"My nigga you just said you were moving Yanni in the crib."
"My nigga I got this, take some lessons from a real player."
"Yeah, yeah, yeah," I started choking on the blunt.
After we smoked the blunt he and Yanni left. I joined Kaylee in the living room. She was watching a movie.
Chapter Eleven – Kaylee
I was sitting in the living room watching, Love and Basketball when Rashaan came and sat next to me.
"Wassup beautiful?" he grabbed my hand and held it.
"Sup?" I answered dryly, "When you moving?"
"Two weeks, you know you’re always welcomed at my house, right?"
"Mmm," I continued to look at the television.
We sat in silence until the end of the movie.
"I'm going to bed goodnight," I let go of his hand and made my way upstairs. Climbing in bed, I laid there and let my thoughts take over until I went to sleep.
***
Two weeks later
My graduation is tomorrow, and it's a bittersweet situation for me. I've been crying all morning wishing I could share this moment with my mother.
"Here Kaylee, this is from Rashaan," Brittany handed me an envelope that said Kaylee on it. After she had walked out the room, I opened the envelope and pulled out the card.
I started tearing up while I was reading it. It read:
Dear Beautiful Kaylee,
I just wanted to let you know how proud I am of you. Although we have known each other for only a few months, I just want to say how happy I am that you’re in my life. I know that you’re a little upset with me because I’m out of town and can't make it to your graduation tomorrow, but I promise I will make it up. Look under your pillow, I got you a surprise.
I moved my pillows and found another envelope. I opened it, a bunch of money, and a note fell out.